I decided to restart my blog after a few months. Let’s see how this goes.

I took a break from the blog about 6 weeks ago because I was moving and also because I wasn’t sure what direction I wanted to take the blog in at that point. I felt like I was forcing myself and I hate that because I love writing. I love using writing as a form of self-expression. I felt like I was forcing myself to do things that I didn’t necessarily want to do because I felt like I needed to have a business to make money without needing a corporate job. I felt like that was the only way to do things and was placing myself in a box that I felt like was chafing me in a way that I hated with a passion.

I realized this week that I didn’t want to keep forcing myself to build up a freelancing business while working a full-time job because I just didn’t have the time for the business that I feel that it needs. I’m just too tired, honestly. I decided I wanted to take a step back and use this blog as a journal of sorts for the chaos that is my thoughts. I decided to take some true time and figure out what it is I really want. I hate that I haven’t really done that so far after 10 years of trying to make a freelance business work. I realized I don’t want to fight an up-hill battle, especially if I’m not sure if my freelance business will even be successful enough to replace the income I’m currently making from my full-time job.

As stressful as the job is at this time, I do enjoy the money I make from it. I’m going to be working an insane amount, regardless of the form the work comes in, no matter what I decide to do. I have a feeling I’d be working more in the freelance business than I currently do, which is definitely not ideal. I’m tempted, honestly, to keep this job since it’s a work from home job and I’ve had it for so long. I know people would kill for this job and I feel like I haven’t been as grateful as I should be, especially since I got this job not even 3 weeks after I left my previous job because I was so fed up over the way I was treated.

I have the ability to make a lot of money with this job and I want to take advantage of that. Oh, I’m so sorry, I went off on a tangent again. I’m sorry, that shit happens on occasion. I try to keep myself on one subject at a time but sometimes that just doesn’t happen. So, yeah, anyway, I wanted to restart my blog here and keep this website for personal purposes rather than keep trying at a business that I haven’t taken the time to build off the ground. I want to build a personal brand instead, though I’m not sure what my goal will be for that at the moment. I’ll figure it out as we go.

I’m going to compile a list of links for my social media accounts as well, such as my Instagram, Tiktok (I don’t use Tiktok but I do have a profile there), Goodreads for my book reviews, Fable for my book reviews, and my Amazon review profile. I think I’m more excited to give myself an honest chance to focus on myself for a change since I feel so burned out. I kind of want to save up enough money to take a week off since I feel burned out from my job at the moment. Stay tuned for future blog posts!